Some people think self sponsored registrars are having it easy/privileged, this might give you a wider perspective
Doing my part one wasn't a walk in the park,self sponsored,paid every single penny of that fees. Locumed so much at night,went to class at chiromo during the day. I remember i once did locum the whole night and sat for an end of quater exam the following morning. My son missed me,my hairdresser missed me,my friends missed me. They all knew about my forthcoming exams. I even asked my son to pray for me n he is only 4! What i hated most about the year was the bank calling me over a loan i had defaulted. They said they will come for my assets. I told them i dont have a car nowadays. I own nothing. I dont have rich parents to fall back on to either. I took the loan to start a business with 5 other idiots n the business went down. It was meant to see me through post grad. When it dint pick i still decided to go back for post grad. I consolled myself i worked through undergrad to support myself. N i told myself i will locum. Someone agreed to sponsor me. I miscalculated since in undergrad i dint have a child,now i do,he needs me,i owe him my time. The person sponsoring me bailed out on me,n i was left to my own devices. I remember feeling so burnt out at some point n what was i told by this sponsor? If u cant hack it just drop out. The bank knows about the strike,i hope.
My hairdresser knows about the strike too,i bumped into her n promised to make regular visits if things look up.
I am told part two is tricky u cant locum as much coz the schedule is tight n unpredictable.
It is my prayer that the strike pays off. If it doesnt i just hope they review the hours post grads work at the hospital,so i can continue moonlighting n meeting my needs. If this is not so i will b left stuck between a rock n a very hard place.
A former classmate today was critisizing the bad service n misdiagnosis she got at one famous private hospital,n she said she has lost faith in the current crop of doctors. N i realised all these people commenting were average students who did B.A n now they take home 6figure salaries,n so they can afford to gloat at the likes of me n the strike. This doesnt feel right at all.
I feel down,the sky is grey outside. Its not sunny. God help me
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